Messy Life Crazy Chronicles

 Well, so much has happened in my life, and I can't wait to tell you about it. I am getting ready to start a new career and my family and I are stable. God has been keeping us and providing all our needs. God is truly amazing. I can testify that just because one door has closed doesn't mean it's a bad thing. That God has something else instore for me. In trusting God completely, I have developed a deeper more meaningful relationship with God. By trusting and depending on God to make away. It has shown me that if all I have is God then I already have all I need.  On a sad note, Aciepoop my beloved service dog passed away. He was the most loving and loyal dog I have ever had. He will be greatly missed and forever loved. I only wish He got to see our new place and run around in the yard. By losing him it has opened a door to a new career for me. That I am hopeful and excited about.  This new year has opened so many doors and blessings for me and my family. We are growing by ...

 I want to encourage   and uplift the sad, lonely, depressed. The person who feels forgotten and left out. With this new outlook on life and within myself. I hope to inspire someone to keep going and to seek the Lord. To find freedom and healing that He alone can give.  For way too long I have allowed others to dictate who and how my life should be lived. Worried about what others thought and were saying about me. Only to realized that the ones judging me were controlling me keeping me from living and being myself. Did I want to give those negative gossipers that kind of power in my life?  After doing months of self-reflection and prayers I have decided to disconnect from people like that completely. The negative people who have nothing going for themselves that they are worried about others and the choices they make. So, I forgive and release every one of them. I am going to be worried about what's going on with me and mines.  At the end of my life, I surely wo...

 I can feel the change in the weather and the soon announcement of fall on the horizon. I feel change in the air this early morning. As, I am sitting outside enjoying my coffee this beautiful morning. The crisp cool morning is rejuvenating my soul. I am enjoying myself thinking about pulling out my boots and sweaters later today. This is my favorite time of the years from here till April is my favorite seasons. I am not a summer person. This year I am going to make the most out of what I have and enjoy my favorite time of the year. 

 We are all given a name at birth by our parents or a loved one. It's something we carry around with us all  our lives that identify us. It's on our birth certificate, social security cards, school records, medical  records and driver license. But it's much more than that it's how we know people are talking to us. We feel  connected to our names and are proud of our names. Well, I have never liked my given name never  thought it fit me at all. After 2021 and what happened to me, I felt disconnected to my name like someone  was slapping me in my face every time someone would say it. I would physically cringe at the sound of  my name. So, I been looking for a new name to call myself and later legally change it to. I had thought I found one but no didn't stick but I kept feeling really disconnected to my name. Then I thought maybe  I should ask God to give me a new name. I prayed and asked him to give me a new name and forgot I had asked him two year...

 I am sorry I haven't been making my blog like I was before. I been busy studying and reading my bible  and spending time in worship. To be honest I don't even know what to write about anymore. I am doing  really well,  and I am stable and doing what God called me to do. I am in love with my life for the first time in a long  time. I am thankful for all I have and even thankful for all that I don't have. I thank God for his protection  in the no and doors not opening. His protection in the removing of people in my life for God truly knows  what's best for me. I have no fear for my tomorrow because I know who holds all my days in His hands.  I would like to invite you to ask Jesus to come into your heart to be your Lord and Saviour.  please repeat this prayer after DEAR JESUS, I AM A SINNER AND I ASK YOU TO FORGIVE ME OF MY SINS KNOWINGLY AND UNKNOWNINGLY. I ASK YOU TO COME INTO MY HEART AND LIVE. PLEASE GUIDE ME AND LEAD ME ALL THE DAYS OF MY...

 As, I am sitting here listening to music and scrolling mindlessly on Facebook. My mind starts to think on my relationship with Jesus Christ. I realized something that I didn't find Jesus in CHURCH or when I was in Ministry, I found Jesus in the pit I found and built a real relationship with Him at my lowest time in my life. I found Jesus when I looked up and everyone was gone. It took me losing it all and being by myself with no distractions to really find Him. To allow him in the secret places of my heart.  For years I knew of Jesus and claimed I had him in my heart. But when trials came into my life, I would walk away from him instead of going to Jesus with the hurt and pain. I would turn away and run. It was in that low place of not having anywhere to run to anymore or anyone, but Jesus that I really got to know Him and fall in love with Him like never before.  I am thankful for the pits that I have been placed in because that is where I have grown the most and gotten...